Howdy (-:
My name is Terran Mikaela. I’m a 26 year old blogger/vlogger/actor from Texas and I have a huge passion for self-care and personal growth. I believe that when you invest in yourself you can live the life you’ve always wanted.
I’ve always had big dreams for my life from my acting career to my long list of travel destinations. I was tired of scrolling through social media looking at other people living the life I wanted. I realized I had no reason to be jealous of it if I wasn’t doing anything to work toward that.
Blogging has been a way for me to focus my energy on the things that will make me the person that I want to be. By putting a focus on things like good health, productivity, and gratitude I know that in time everything will fall into place.
I hope to inspire other people to do the same. I want create an uplifting community where we all can help each other be a little better every day.
A Little Backstory
Back in 2020/2021 was when I hit my rock bottom. I was dealing with depression, anxiety, binge eating disorder, alcohol abuse, self harm, and more. I cried everyday. Multiple times a day. I didn’t care about anything yet I cared so much. I was so, so angry at the world and at myself.
But for some reason I leaned into it. I let myself fall. I made so many mistakes and I even hurt some people along the way. One day I got tired of it. I was so disgusted in the person I had become and was finally at the place where I wanted to help myself.
Slowly I’ve been picking up the pieces of me.
I’m not quite where I want to be but I’m so much better, and so much happier than I was before.
I started taking care of myself. I’ve cut back my drinking (recently sober), I don’t self-harm anymore. I’m working on my issues with eating and my depression though still there, has become manageable.
I even started following my dreams again. In the midst of my darkness I had given up on myself. But in 2022 I made the decision to go to Canada to attend Vancouver Film School for Acting for Film and Television to start repurposing my dream of becoming a professional actress. While in Vancouver I also started my YouTube Channel, which is something I’ve wanted to consistently do since I was a kid.
And finally that brings me to the creation of this blog. I’ve wanted to have a blog since I was in high school. So, on trend with getting out of my own way and not letting the fear of failure stop me, PeachyPapillon is born.
Papillon is french for butterfly. Butterflies were a huge symbolism for me when I was first coming out of the deepest part of my depression. They are a symbol of transformation and new beginnings. I’ve also always have had a love for french culture and have been studying the language loosely since I was 9.
I chose peachy partly because of the alliteration but also because of the happy connotations. It seemed perfect for the vision that I had for my blog. It also reminds me of one of my favorite songs that always puts me in a good mood “Peach” by BROODS.